Jeff and I never go "all out" for Christmas, we like to keep it simple. I was sure I would want a nice big fat Christmas tree, since we have room for one in our new home. But life's been crazy here, and money is tight. We decided months ago that we weren't buying presents, so I couldn't see shelling out dough on a tree that would have nothing underneath it. I dug my little fake one out of the closet. Low and behold it's a perfect fit to sit on the fireplace hearth... along with my 1954 light-up plastic Santa. When my parents sold their home, 5 years ago, they gave me all their window candles. I finally have window sills to put them on! Despite our tree-less home, it's feeling quite festive here.
Although I think all my ancient light up decorations scare Jeff a little.
We also had a last minute change in Christmas dinner plans. Jeff's sister Susan fell and broke her hip. She will be spending the holiday in rehab. The family will meet here on Christmas day and travel together to see her. When we return, Jeff and I will host a low key dinner. I love the thought of having Christmas dinner here at home, I just wish it wasn't under these circumstances. Susan loves Christmas and often does a lot of the cooking. I am sure she is disappointed.
My view of Christmas changed completely the year JZ died. It was less than two weeks before Christmas. I couldn't bring myself to shop that year, and never mind cooking. What I realized that year, was that Christmas happens without the ribbons and bows, and that it is more enjoyable without the stress. I guess you can say I stepped off the holiday treadmill in 2008.
Wishing all a Merry Christmas, no matter how you celebrate it.