i think i will have a beer.

...it's been a $hitty day and i really have nothing to say.  didn't even go out to the studio.  since i have nothing to say and need something to make me smile, i will leave you with this sweet picture then head to the fridge for that cold one...

~me and my girl, 1982~

sometimes... life is tough.

... last wednesday would have been jz's 59th birthday. i sort of knew in the back of my head that it would bring feelings of grief and anger bubbling back to the surface. add this to other stresses in my life and i have become totally overwhelmed. i know time will make things easier. yet sometimes i don't want them to get easier because then i feel like i am forgetting him. the one thing i have learned from this is that i am no longer afraid of dying. it's way harder to be the person left behind.

don't ask me what this video has to do with this post other than i like it and wanted to share it.

long ride home...

grief is a complex emotion...i think i am doing just fine and then something or a series of events brings it all back to the surface and the sadness overwhelms...

this just seemed right for today.