February 17th came and went and I didn't remember that it was Jz's birthday. I thought about it a few times before the date, and didn't remember again until the 18th. In the past I have grilled burgers (his favorite food) and sipped scotch to celebrate his life. This year it came and went without my marking the occasion.
On the New Hampshire home front, my Mom has had some rough days. Her nurse and physical therapist think she will see a big improvement by the end of the week. Thankfully my sister has been able to stay with her and Dad. As for me, I am trying to avoid the feelings of guilt for not being there. Not easy when you were raised Catholic. ;-)
You'll never forget, there will always be a Jz shaped part of your heart. But you deserve happiness and a life as well
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what a lovely tree of remembrance, memories soften and mellow but are just as sweet and wonderful.
ReplyDeleteThank you Gwyneth, I know that you speak from experience.
ReplyDeleteLinda, the tree is a fall photo I took in the apple orchard behind my pottery studio in NH. The storefront is the barn that the studio was housed in. It was a wonderful place to make pots with lots of history.
Yes, you deserve to be happy, you deserve to have a life. It doesn't mean you've forgotten Jz or that you care less. It means that you are honoring him and yourself by living.
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